“I principally ran away,” De La Hoya, 50, stated on the Thursday, July 20, episode of the “Allison Interviews” podcast. “I used to be scared. I used to be fearful.”
De La Hoya welcomed Atiana, now 24, in 1999 with ex Shanna Moakler. One 12 months after their daughter’s delivery, the previous boxer and Moakler, 48, known as it quits in 2000 after 4 years collectively In 2004, Moakler moved on and tied the knot with Barker, 47. As Moakler and Barker started their household, the Blink 182 drummer stepped as much as act as a father determine to Atiana.
“I did attempt to be a father full-time for a number of years, and it was stunning,” De La Hoya admitted. “It was superb to lift slightly lady, however there got here a degree the place you ask your self, ‘Wait a minute, you’re undeserving of this.’ You attempt to persuade your self that you just’re undeserving of this, that love shouldn’t be potential in your life due to what I lived — of not receiving that love after I was a child.”
De La Hoya revealed his anxieties about parenthood stemmed from his difficult relationship with his own parents. The retired athlete claimed that his mother and pop by no means instructed him they beloved or hugged him and would “get hit” every time he would cry.
“I do know I’m this good man and I do know I could be a father however then there comes a degree the place it’s such as you attempt to persuade your self … this isn’t you that is scary,” he recalled. “You’re undeserving of giving love.”
Throughout the time Atiana was under the care of Moakler and Barker, De La Hoya put his concentrate on boxing, which he credit with maintaining him “in line.” Nonetheless, De La Hoya confessed he did test on his little lady sometimes.
“I used to be all the time there, however not there, you understand? It wasn’t your typical relationship with the daddy and the mom there 24/7,” he stated on Thursday. “It wasn’t like that, however clearly, she is my daughter and I like her.”
In the middle of their romance, Moakler and Barker welcomed two youngsters collectively: son Landon, 19, and daughter Alabama, 17. The duo have been collectively for 4 years earlier than they known as it quits for good in 2008. Regardless of their breakup, Barker remained shut together with his stepdaughter. The musician later moved on with spouse Kourtney Kardashian with whom Atiana additionally has a robust bond.
Earlier this month, De La Hoya gave Barker props for being a good father figure to his daughter over time.
“Look, I didn’t elevate my children, you understand? Their mothers did. And I’ve to provide credit score the place credit score is due,” he stated to Entertainment Tonight in July. “I’m grateful that Barker was there, you understand, as a father determine for my daughter. I’ve to be grateful that Shanna was a mom to Atiana, and simply know my place, principally, you understand? My place — I’m clearly a father, and I’m pleased with it. However, once more, I’m grateful for what they’ve carried out. Particularly with Barker. He’s clearly stepped as much as the plate.”